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Those things that I have learned & the things that you have taught me. You've done them a millions times over. Why? When i'd never do them again.

stop the car...take a photograph of that cloud.

realisation.

so after a few months of uncertainty, i know where i am now.
i've finally discovered what it feels like to love, be loved, to hurt, to be portrayed, be lied and decieved. i dont even know how to describe in words how i feel, but i know it hurt.

alot of things have gone on, things that i could never dream of - good & bad.
ive had one of my biggest dreams come true and then being whisked away from me for a moment. i'll be working hard to get that back. some people will never know what has gone on, but you'd probably never believe it. if you had told me that next week id be doing it again, even i wouldnt believe it.

its made me realise alot about people. ive lost people and gained some back. everything happens for a reason. but i never thought people could make you feel so bad, althought part of it was my decision, i never thought people could go out of there way to hurt you.

therefore. im doing me, i have the hardest year of my life coming up and ive got to concentrate of that and get my dream. maybe find someone who doesnt do those things.